Today I received truly horrible treatment by the max-unit staff. But this post is not to share what happened. The women I am imprisoned with think the treatment is because of this blog. It could be, it could not be. Either way I wrote this in a cell today, this poem to the guards.
I just wanted to say hello.
You see me everyday
But you never say hello.
You’ve yelled at me before
You’ve touched my body before
You’ve written reports on me before,
But you’ve never said hello.
I bet we have a lot in common
That we’re more alike than not
I wonder if you spoke to me,
You’d still afterwards want me to “rot.”
Did you know that I have feelings?
I bet you have them too.
I bet you laugh at funny jokes
And cry when you are blue.
I have many feelings to,
And I get hurt by what you do,
But you don’t know this, and I don’t share;
You hate me and of you I’m scared.
But I bet we have a lot in common
I bet if we had a cup of coffee together
We’d learn that we share interests, hopes and fears.
And we might wonder the same wonders.
And we might come to talk about important things.
We might come to argue, but some truths it could bring.
For you might say that “criminals” all hurt one another
And I might admit I think it’s the guards who are trouble
And then we may argue about who could be wrong
But we’d also agree on one point that is strong:
It’s only the labels that make us feel hate
On a personal level you may think I’m okay
You may say, “that girl’s not your average crook”
And I may respond, “you’re not as cruel as you look.”
But I’d still conclude guards commit a crime by being guards
And you’d still probably believe in walls, cuffs and bars.
And that leaves us at odds and divided and angry,
And forgetting that we come from the same human family.
Jailer, I just wanted to say “hello” today
And wonder what would happen if we let go of hate.